But.
Mike just sent me out to go get us ice cream after he served up a dinner of halibut, asparagus, corn with lobster, etc (exhibit a) This guy can cook!!! Anyway, I hit the road and since I didn't have the babe with me, i cranked some tunes. I haven't car jammed for quite some time! I turned on Cruise by Florida Georgia Line/Nelly and that carefree song combined with the hot summer night air finally gave me a new perspective. Finally.
Yes, my maternity leave is over. But look at what chapter is ending...the chapter of uncertain life that comes with a newborn. My body has done one of the coolest things it will ever do, and endured one of the most painful things I will ever experience. i have healed from the physical and emotional duress that by body went through. I am no longer scared to venture out to target or to the grocery store with Max. We even took him to our hotel bar this week to have a couple margaritas! I know Max, and Max knows me.
Tomorrow starts life as a family of three. Not a frazzled couple with a newborn. We start our routine, and Max starts meeting new people so that he can gain skills to someday live independently from us. (But then again if he never moves out, oh well!!!)
Just like with the end of my pregnancy, Mike hasn't given my back-to-work pity party much attention. He remains Positive Pete and tells me how Max will be proud to have a mom that works. And it's annoyed the crap out of me, until now, as I realize he was just waiting for me to catch up with him and join in celebrating life. We have so much to be thankful for. Please, God, let this attitude of celebration continue. We can celebrate life tomorrow, and the day after that, because taking on challenges and conquering milestones along the way, now that is living!
So while its super annoying to have to pack my lunch every night, and dress like a professional human again, I'm returning to a job that I enjoy, in a company I'm proud to work for. And I will start knowing what day it is again! Maternity leave can't last forever, and maybe that's okay.
Ask me again tomorrow as I'm driving away.
Exhibit A
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