Good

When I was pregnant, I would dream of the day that I could hold Maxwell close to my cheek and dance with him.  Now, I force my squirmy 10 month old to snuggle up to me as we dance to a song by Dave Barnes called "Good".  Everything Dave Barnes creates is a gift from heaven, but man oh man...this song makes me cry every time.  

Years ago, as a serious relationship began to unravel, I felt panicked and so scared that I would never have a family of my own and I begged God to make this relationship work.  To give us the pieces of the puzzle that were missing so that we could make it work.  That relationship finally ended and for weeks, I used the long drive home from work to cry my lonely heart out.   

But then came Mike.  

What if God had answered my prayers?  What if I had forced a relationship that wasn't meant to be?  I think we all know Garth Brooks said in best in "Unanswered Prayers".  What if I never gave myself a chance to get to Mike?  That God, he sure knows what he's doing.

And that is what I want Maxwell to know.  That no matter what, God is in control.  That even when Maxwell thinks he knows best, that he should never let his human need for instant gratification overpower his confident hope in God's plan.  That even in his darkest hour, God is laying the groundwork for good to come again.

Now everyone do yourself a favor and listen to this song.  (This also reminds me to take more home videos.)

Meow!  Gigi's bed is so exotic!