We now live an hour apart. Why does this make my heart hurt so much?
Maybe it's because we have just spent the last few weeks being temporary roommates, and it makes not seeing you every day that much harder! When Addy sneaks down after Brynn is in bed for a slumber party in the basement and we talk about what we are thankful for and pick our wedgies and giggle before snuggling in to sleep, when Brynn fights her nap so hard but crashes into a deep sleep on Mike and lets him carry her to her bed, when Reese shares some more of her first laughs with her mama and I get to be there to observe...these are the sweet little moments that I treasure with you darling little girls, and I don't ever want these moments to become less frequent or less special or less important.
I worry about the day that you don't think I'm super cool and you'll cringe at the attention i give you. But even more, I worry about the day you leave for college, or move to a new city, because if I am this attached already, how will it be after hanging with you for that many years?
Your mom and I joke about moving our families to the farm and living a compound life. It's only partly a joke. Because we have these people in our lives that we love so much that all we want to do is protect them and be with them uninterrupted until the end of time!
You girls have captured my heart in a way that I didn't expect. And I wonder how my love will transform as we bring our little boy into this family in a few months. I can't wait to watch you gobble him up and make him feel so loved (and outnumbered). I laugh when I think about the girly torture you'll put him through...and I won't stop it, because your mom and I did the exact same nonsense to Tyson and he turned out just fine.
So now we live an hour away, but as I write this, I lose some of my heartache because I am reminded of how change is inevitable, and if we just move forward and adapt, instead of turn it into a sob story, then we open the door for even more fun and memories and possibilities and all of those other mushy words that I want to associate with you girlies. So, instead of being sad, I will explore for new places to take you girls to and new sights to see and make our own.
It was Addyson's birth that brought me back to Colorado, it was Brynn's birth that rejuvenated me at a time when I needed it most, and it was Reese's birth that is still reminding me how important our families are.
Love you all so very much!
Your Ashey
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